My Bittersweet World (:

2011-12-30T07:28:00.000-08:00

high school gang :)

2012 is coming soon

i hope that 2012 will be better than 2011

please fulfill my wish,god.

signing off,

2011-12-24T08:18:00.000-08:00

25/12/2011
MERRY CHRISTMAS everybody out there !

christmas is always one ordinary day to me

nothing so special for me,well maybe it's because i don't celebrate christmas that's why i don't have that excited feeling

i have a feeling that something bad is going to happen to me,

whatever it is.

merry x'mas buddies ! :)

2011-12-20T21:27:00.000-08:00

this,is my closest friend in life,or you guys should say,my best friend.

the reason why i post this is because,after reading someone's blog

i reckon i have the same feeling as her.

yeah,long distance relationship doesn't last long,so does friendship?

i've known her since 2007 at the age of 13 but we were close to each other only in 2008

and that's when our friendship grew closer.

we were super close throughout 2008-2010

gossips,secrets,conversations and stuff

non-stop topics throughout this 3 years

and yes,it's not easy to last a long distance friendship.

as 2011 begins,i reckon,our friendship is getting worse and worse

as we seldom meet each other nor talk to each other

it's because what she says is all about one particular person,not to mention who but i think she knows who's that

not that i am blaming that particular person,but everyone needs a partner,u can't force them to leave each other because of some small matter.

2010,i was forced to transfer school for some reason

we were still quite close to each other as we're not used to our new classmates and friends.

as time passed,we slowly drifted apart from each other

it's not our wrong,it's god intention.

we've not talk to each other for like,3 months i guess

i don't think she gives a damn on me anymore now.

well,maybe this is just life,i should just accept the reality

but what i want to say that is,no matter what,

i'll still treat u as one of my closest friend

although you won't be seeing this.

but still,thanks for everything u've did to me and the memories u've given to me

i sincerely hope that this feeling doesn't last long and we can go back to last time like how we used to be

but i don't think so,as i don't even know whether do you even treat me as one of your closest friend

u always said that i am your best friend,but only you and god knows the truth

and i really hope that what u said is true

no matter what the result is,

thanks for everything and good luck :)

signing off,

2011-12-17T08:07:00.000-08:00

COLLEGE?

this word has been driving on my mind for the past few days

suddenly don't have the feeling to go to college

is it phobia?i don't know

since i am taking up january intake,so my college life will start in about 4 more weeks time

i am currently excited yet worried

will college life be like high school life?

i suddenly recalled the memories back to form 1

looking at those form 5s graduate

i was thinking,when is my turn?

as time flies,i've already graduated

and stepping into the real life

no more fooling around,time to be serious.

signing off,

2011-12-14T06:55:00.000-08:00

okay,so i decided to reopen my blog as i think there's nothing so private to keep about,so yeah.

after gone through 24 days of hell,finally SPM is over :)

i've been telling myself that i won't be missing high school

but then i think i prove myself wrong,i really do miss high school now,not even a month and im missing high school already

college life and the real life as people said begins

well,this will be my second time going through a new environment and strangers all over again

hope that they'll also give me good memories and not hatred

a picture to be kept.

thanks for making my life filled with colours and not darkness.

thanks for the memories,buddies.

yours truly,

2011-11-27T06:53:00.000-08:00

10 more days,till the end of SPM,the end of form 5 & the end of,high school.

should i be happy or sad? :|

2011-09-27T06:10:00.000-07:00

okay,so trials is over after a month

like finally.

well,the next examination will be SPM,the most important examination in our life

see u in about 1 and a half month later =.=

well,overall the exams are okay

all the subjects leaked.like seriously everything came out exactly the same

but well,hope that my results will be good

at least 5Cs please :SS

october will be a good month

outing & vacation :))

but after that

SPM -.-

done updating. :)

signing off,

2011-08-25T07:15:00.001-07:00

well,just now i was bored so i browsed through my old posts

and wao,didn't know i was that naughty and arrogant last time

but well,people do change

and i think im changing to a better person?

the way i act now and before

ever since i changed to a new school

attitude and also personality totally changed

well,should i be thankful?

well,will just continue living this life

SPM trials coming up

good luck everyone.

2011-08-16T00:15:00.000-07:00

3 and a half more months

the end of high school

no more wearing school uniform

no more wearing school socks

no more wearing school shoes

no more tying up my hair

no more discipline

no more tuition

no more....

can't wait for it X)

but think about it,SPM is just 3 months away

gosh,should really start studying

but i have no idea why am i getting lazier and more sleepy nowadays

any way to cure this sickness?

help !

signing off,

2011-08-13T05:03:00.000-07:00

远距离的爱情不会长久，

更何况是友情？

我，心淡了。

2011-07-25T06:50:00.000-07:00

feel so revive after removing you as my blog reader

now i can talk about you here anything,anytime.

i've been giving u chances to change,and yet you still act like a bitch

look at the way u treated me and what did u do to me

think twice before even voice out anything in front of me

and don't ever appear in front of me if possible

i am a person that easily forgive and forget

if i said that i always bear grudge,it's actually im trying to show you how will i hate a person if she/he treated me like a piece of shit

i don't really hate a person that much

whenever i burp everything out,i just burp.i don't do anything behind.

but seriously the way u treated me

how i helped u so much

and when u need help i'll be always there for you

but what you did to me?you should know.

felt like a fool helping u doing so many things

why am i so dumb?

make me feel like backstabbing u back

now,

i have no way but to blacklist you from my life

29/7/2011

and i felt so glad today because when u talked to me,i ignored you :)

i did it !

sincerely,

engsze

2011-07-21T05:14:00.000-07:00

early morning,teacher gave me 2 sweets,unexpectedly lol xD

today,lots of things happened O.O

stayed back for the last badminton match.

and yeah,i lost.

second place is better than nothing right?

and sorry to my friends because i went quite down after the match,especially wai shan

i should be the one saying sorry,i perform unwell today

if your partner wasn't me,you would play better

stop saying sorry to me,although u won't be seeing my blog

but i'm just writing this out lol

lots of homework today,goddamn it ==

tomorrow will be having 3 hours of add maths

seems like i'll be in class doing nothing again tomorrow.

well,monthly test for the form 5s will be starting next week

why time passed so fast,i haven't even touch a book yet

monthly test

homework

account tuition test

driving test

this is freaking driving me crazy !

2011-07-18T00:30:00.000-07:00

i miss them

and many many more chs people :(

2011-07-14T08:30:00.000-07:00

few of my classmates :)

class picture with bm teacher :)

PBC station game's group picture

never update for quite some while

this few days no mood at all

barely even wan't to talk

due to some reasons

and also some things that is making me miserable

life ain't that easy sometimes

i now truly understand how does FML feels.

signing off,

2011-07-05T07:28:00.000-07:00

mood is a bit better now compared to the last few weeks

and today,my temper went up during recess time

i really feel sorry and want to apologize to the person i put my anger on today

really very sorry,i didn't mean to do it,due to something that made me feel pissed that's why i didn't care about anything at that moment

although u won't be seeing this,but i am still apologizing for no reason :|

just feeling guilty though

today started my cambridge Pre-FCE level class

wasn't that bad after all

although im the eldest(again -.-) in that class but still i really did enjoy the class,much more better than the previous class

hope that my english will improve after attending this class

SPM is in 4 months

seriously omgwtfbbqman screwed up -.-

2011-07-02T06:50:00.000-07:00

last year of high school's sports day ended just like this

although hijau got second place,but in our heart,hijau is always number 1 ♥

RUMAH HIJAU ♥

merah's deco ♥

heard that CHS's merah got M1D2

although it's not M1D1 but still,merah will be in my heart forever ! ♥

2011-06-24T08:06:00.000-07:00

朋友，

你们有没有想过，为何有时候我会对人很陌生？

以前的我，是一个很开朗的人。

但有一次，我狠狠地被一班朋友抛弃过。

那时的感受，一点都不愉快

那时的我，真的很想就这样结束了生命。

自从那件事后，我对每个人都非常陌生。

看见一个人如没看见那样。

每次有人跟我说话时

只会对他们笑一笑

因为，我不想案件重演。

那，一点都不好玩。

一直以为他们趁我不在时，在我背后讲我坏话。

我，一直往坏的方向想。

直到有天，朋友叫我不要一直乱想

我就试着改变自己。

现在，我没以前想那么多了。

只想开开心心地过我现在的生活

虽然我和公教中学的朋友们关系越来越疏远了

但我知道，是时候要独立了。

我要学会独立。

谢谢你，我的朋友们。:)

2011-06-18T05:50:00.000-07:00

mid term is over

got back all the results

it wasn't that bad after all

trials coming up next

gotta really work hard for it

no more fooling around

july,please be more interesting.

sports day coming up :|

wanted to go to CHS's sports day but my school's sports day fall on the same date as CHS's sports day D:

teacher told us that some pegawai will be coming to our school to listen to our chinese oral speaking

out of 26 people,im so lucky to be the 10 of them -.-"

speaking in front of teacher is already scary enough,now in front of strangers?can't think what it will be ==

hope that everything goes smooth on thursday

few days ago had driving lesson

it was fun but tough

hope that i'll pass the exam though

that's all for today's update.

2011-06-12T06:26:00.000-07:00

♥♥♥♥♥♥

had fun with them although only 5 of them turned up

saturday was 6A's gathering

as an admin of this event,i can say that,this plan really failed -.-

this should be a 37 people gathering,but it turned up to be a 5 person outing -.-

but i also had fun spending time with them :')

we watched "karak",this movie kind of scared the hell out of me

there were only a few people in the cinema,makes it more scarier :S

after that we went to neway for karaoke

my first time singing so much :|

after that,we decided to walk from ou to curve

we were like damn afraid of the acid splasher

we kinda ran for our life,and the tunnel there hell lots of cars

and we finally reached safely :)

had dinner and chit-chatted

went home around 9.30

one of the best gathering so far :')

thanks celene,jia hwei,wen qi,brandon and yi shien for coming :)

2011-06-08T06:26:00.000-07:00

erm.

i have no idea what happened to me nowadays

getting more and more not sociable

the old me used to say hi to everyone and make friends very quickly

but now,i have no idea why am i just so cool nowadays :\

like today,i went out with a few person

although i don't know them well,but i seriously have no idea why i didn't really talk

sorry for being not sociable

bare with me,i don't know what happened to me :|

2011-06-03T08:26:00.000-07:00

就当我们彼此没见过面吧，

你的一时擦过，

真的让我很难忘记我们所经历过的回忆。

2011-06-01T02:28:00.001-07:00

came back from camp

i was really suffering,not feeling very well

and i had less than an hour of sleep last night @@

woke up at 7 yesterday and went to the camp at 8.30

had some tea and started playing game

we ran like mad,i had a blue black now on my leg

after that had lunch,then continue playing games again,but with our own group members

my group contains 4 girls and 4 boys

and we were like crazy fools running up and down lol

at night had dinner and listen to the paster's speech

then sang songs and stuff for 2 hours

then went to sleep at 11pm

i rolled here and there

until finally about 2 something,i get to sleep

BUT,who knows.

they suddenly woke us up at 3am just to scare us

they asked us to go to 8 different places to find clue

their acting,failed xD

not scary at all,i even said hi to those who were wearing mask trying to act like a ghost LOL

then finished playing at about 6.30am

then phoned my mom up because i wasn't feeling very well

but for my first time attending a camp,it's not bad lah

and sorry to my group members that i abandon you guys

i wasn't feeling very well,good luck and all the best to you guys :)

i still remember our slogan

我们一家没秘密，

只靠团结的力量,

胜利就是我们的.

signing off,

2011-05-30T05:37:00.000-07:00

the day before yesterday

slept at 2am and woke up at 7am

because need to sit for undang test on that day @@

uncle lee came to fetch me and celene @ about 8 and we reached there about 8.20

waited for a while and someone came to open the door :S

waited for half an hour

went in to sit for the test

i clicked english and yeah the test was all in english

so i failed for the first time =.="

the second time,i clicked bm and then i passed :D

going to 4 days 3 nights camp with wannie,liling,teresa and anna tmr :D

2011-05-24T06:35:00.000-07:00

2 more days,2 more papers

but still need to wait for thursday to come -.-

ekomoni paper 2 and chinese paper 1

and the end of mid term.

good luck to those who are sitting for add maths paper tmr

especially 5 bestari/2011 students :))

gosh,i've been waiting for this day to come since weeks ago

time,please flow faster :S

friday going to hang out with chs-ians ♥♥

sunday having undang test and outing with celene and ts ♥♥

tuesday-friday camp with wannie,teresa,li ling and anna ♥♥

second week of holidays hanging out with friends ♥♥

life is sometimes,fulfill with happy moment :')

2011-05-22T02:24:00.000-07:00

4 more days !

6 more papers !

and party all night~~

2011-05-20T07:11:00.000-07:00

clock strikes 12.

it was my 17th birthday yesterday,19/5/2011

i recieved 6 text from my friends

law yee chin,choy yee chin,wannie,wei yee,jia xin and kgai kang

unexpected text from c.yee chin,wannie and kgai kang =|

first time both my close friends wished me at 12am :')

and also unexpected text from kgai kang

cause he said he'll text me when i text him happy birhday first

but he texted me first,so touched lol.

and also thanks to those who wished me at school

julian,teresa,weiyee,jiaxin,eeching,jiajun and more

waishan and choonyun had a plan on wishing me happy birthday after school dismiss

but their mission failed haha

and i was quite upset yesterday because i kinda screwed my english test paper :X

and also thanks to those who wished me on facebook although they won't see this

but still,thanks :))

some people also forgotten to wish me,some due to busy facing exam

and some really forgotten

feel quite upset to those who didn't wish me :|

anyway,i celebrated my birthday night with my family :)

a satisfying birthday i should say :))

2011-05-15T06:03:00.000-07:00

okay,so i had 3 days of exams

more to come.

and what i can say that is,

i did really bad in this test,really really bad

i can't reckon what my results will be :|

just hope that everything goes smooth for the next 2 weeks

and my birthday is coming up,hope that i will have a better birthday this year compared to the past 16 years?

i don't want an upset birthday please,i have had enough

every year sure got something ruined my birthday wan :|

i don't want to get into emotional situation on my birthday this year

and i am going for a camp on 31st of may till 3rd of june

hope i will have fun?

since this is the first time and also the last time attending a camp

i mean last time it's because most of the camps are open to 13-17 years old students

so yeah,i should be studying instead of blogging

why am i even here when there's still more test coming up?

screw my life !

2011-05-08T08:15:00.000-07:00

this,is my current mood

what the hell,exam is in like,3 days time yet im still blogging and also have the time to go on facebook

what is wrong with me man?

this is my final year for high school

yet im still playing around,thinking that there's still lots of time to go

i dislike last minute,yet im always doing it

can anyone tell me how to study?

i eager those who are willing to study before exams and have good results

but sadly,that's so not me.

SERIOUSLY LAH,

NG ENG-SZE !

PLEASE STUDY FOR YOUR MID TERM PLEASE

NO MORE FACEBOOKING AND DRAMAS !

CONCENTRATE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

but somehow,i just can't concentrate.

end of story =.=

signing off,

2011-04-27T06:39:00.000-07:00

so,exam's in 2 weeks time -________________-

have not touch any books yet ._______________________.

and tomorrow having badminton competition again.

must win this match

must sapu rumah biru ! XD

say then easy,do then hard LOL.

nothing much to say

just want to wish everyone good luck in their mid term examination

especially to CHS-ians and Tropicana-ians

fight fight for victory :D

signing off,

2011-04-21T07:25:00.000-07:00

happy birthday law yee chin sampat po !

happy bitter 17th !

the reason why i said it's bitter 17th because we're sitting for our SPM this year

so don't misunderstand anything :P

anyway,i think the both of us are having the same situation?

but anyway,we'll just need to tolerate,tolerate and tolerate :)

good luck in everything and i know we both can do it till the end !

i believe chs still rock our life to the max right?

stay happy and be strong to face everything :)

so yeah,this week is somehow a very busy week

i enjoyed my day with the PBCians on monday

field trip is just simply awesome

i do enjoy my day at tunku abdul rahman college on tuesday too

although it's a bit of boring

and i totally got stunt today because of the science and maths quiz today at KDU college @@

when we arrived,i thought it's just 3 schools competing cause there's only 3 schools' banner there

and when we arrived the hall,zomg 26 schools -.-

firstly,we thought it's just science and maths quiz

and the moment when i opened the paper,section A=mathematics

more like additional mathematics =.=

section B=physics,section C=biology,section D=chemistry,section E=general knowledge

how do you expect an art student to answer science questions?

so we kind of like screwed up the whole test lol

out of 26 schools,most of the schools got medals except our school

nvm,as long as we get to gain experience

saw a few friends there too :)

after that,we loitered around the cafeteria @ KDU college

we waited for the van to fetch us for like 2 hours =.=

after that had badminton competition

and i am proudly to announce that i lost the match :D:D

anyway,that's all for the update

goodbye. :)

signing off,

2011-04-20T06:20:00.000-07:00

the form 5s <3

this trip was one of the best trip in my 17 years life

i'm glad that i attended this one day trip with this awesome peoples

they are really awesome,and also fun to get along with

last year to get along with them,hope that we'll still be in contact with each other

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

colmar tropicale,berjaya hills is so damn freaking awesome man seriously ♥♥♥♥♥♥

2011-04-12T06:48:00.000-07:00

three,

three years ago,i did something that hurt you a lot,like really a lot.

i was really sorry for what i've done to you

and this is what i get after three years

yes,i deserved it.

i know,and i am here to apologize

although u won't be seeing this,but it's alright

hope you will understand the situation that occurred three years ago

i am really,

sorry.

signing off,

2011-04-10T06:05:00.000-07:00

5 BESTARI 2011 ♥

although it's quite hard to get along with them during the first few months

but i've really tried real hard to go through

and i realised they aren't that hard to communicate after all

hope that we'll remain in one heart for the last 7 months

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

27 people,27 hearts

2011-04-07T06:50:00.000-07:00

feeling despair
i have no idea why every of my post are so emotional
not that i wan't to get attention or what
but seriously,i feel that i have a meningless life
despair towards my whole life?
no please?
you may see me being very happy the whole day at the outside
but no one knows that im always sad in the inside
why does it only happen on me?
life is,
unfair.

2011-04-01T07:53:00.000-07:00

28/3/2011

happy 17th birthday siew mei !
u're a really understanding person
and the justification u always tell us are so true
that no one ever tell me before
happy 17th birthday and study hard for this year SPM :)

1/4/2011
happy birthday SAMPAT lee jeen roe
the most sampat person i know so far
haha
and this is your present,your favourite also
-------------------------------> =.=
like your present ?haha
i kind of miss you actually
have not seen u for quite long
SPM coming in 7 months
study hard la,don't always play and rynn lim too much lol
anyway,happy 17th birthday and also good luck in SPM ba :)

2011-03-29T08:03:00.000-07:00

it seems that the distance between me and CHS's friends are getting further and further
and i don't hope it will get to the furthest
it has been more than a year
since i entered this new school
and what i've learn was to be independent and brave all the time.
less than 7 months,till the end of high school
can't wait for the day to arrive.
-
secrets are meant to be kept,not spread.
never ever break your promise with your friend
one day,u might know what's the feeling of being betrayed.

2011-03-15T00:36:00.000-07:00

never ever believe in miracle.
because whenever you're waiting for it to come true.
it will simply just disappoint you.
so why not just work hard,
and,
achieve it.
rather than sitting there like a fool waiting for it to come true.
because miracle never exist,
it's just a word describing and telling people what miracle truly mean.
but believe me,it'll never exist.
trust yourself,if you think u can do it,you can.
if you think you can't,give up and move forward to life,
because there's many more adventure stuff in our life.

cry,never ever cry in front of people,
no one will pity you or do anything that can make u feel happy.
you are youself,be strong to face problems.
never ever rely on people.

2011-03-13T07:21:00.001-07:00

exams are finally over.
here comes the march holidays,
but more like a torturing holidays lol.
am taking undang test this week,
wish me luck yo :)
okay,so a few days ago,
there's this tsunami and earthquake that hit japan.
the earth is sick,
very sick.
please take good care of the earth,
before it explodes.
i know it's no use saying it
but still,
if 2012 really exists
i have nothing much to say
appreciate life before you can't do so.

2011-03-06T05:23:00.000-08:00

47 isn't that bad after all
at least,i tried.
with my strength and heart
to finish the whole run
at least i got 1 mark for my house
i am satisfied with the results :)
compared to the last few years
i got last place
like seriously,
once i stepped out of the school gate
i fell down.
well,people might think,why don't you go backwards instead of finishing the whole run?
it's just a few metres away,compared to a few kilometres away
the more i walk,the more blood dripping downwards
i tell myself,to walk to the finish line
because we should,
go forward and not backwards
you might laugh at me for falling down,being so foolish
but hey,if you're the one who fell down
i bet you will scream for help and walk backwards
at least,im strong enough to walk throughout the whole race
47 isnt that bad after all
although it's my last year of road run
but,im really glad that i attended this event.
-
and also sorry for the poor grammar and vocabulary
i have no idea why nowadays
my english is getting worse
going into worst situation
i wonder how am i going to face SPM

signing off,

2011-03-02T05:20:00.000-08:00

exam mode on
but study mood off
holy shit :O

2011-02-18T07:05:00.000-08:00

im literally useless
or i should say
i already am one.
seriously,FML.
i have chaos mind right now
i like to think about negative stuff
for instance,
while poeple is talking,i will feel that the person is talking bad about me
i have no idea why.
i have this phobia
i seriously can't think of anything that could help me right now
can anyone tell me how to not think too much?
i am seriously damn freaking stress about this
somemore studies and homework are heaping up like mad
i should just study hard and forget about this
but i have no idea why,
i CAN'T do it :(

2011-02-09T05:19:00.000-08:00

greeeeeeeeeen !

the reason why i posted the picture above is because i am from green house
and im gonna work hard to get a medal for green house xD
had AGM for all the societies that i joined
and yeah,congratulations to those who are having a post
in fact,most of my friends got it lol.
and today we had mesyuarat agung for green house
and a few of them took part in pembarisan
while i took part in tug of war
i remember i had a gold for tug of war during the last year of primary school
so im gonna rock on during the last year of secondary school too
wish me luck ! ;)

signing off,

2011-01-16T07:15:00.001-08:00

the first video that i made
although it's kind of failed,but still
enjoy watching :)
and between,ignore the picture below the video
i have no idea why it appear -_-''

signing off,

2011-01-13T05:27:00.000-08:00

the very awesome gang.

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

2011-01-08T03:27:00.000-08:00

firstly,

choy yee chin.

dear best friend,

no matter how far apart are we,we are still best friends.

no matter how long can we meet each other,we are still best friends.

whenever we meet each other,there's still endless topic.

most importantly is that,no matter what is trying to break us apart,we are still best friends !

happy 17th birthday !

no matter what happens,i will still stand by your side and support you.

you might not consider me as your best friend,but i will still treat you as one of my best friend :')

this is also the text that i've sent to you,

your reply truly make me feel touched

because i didn't expect you to say that actually,

hope that our friendship will remain longer :)

secondly,happy birthday siow ting !

fyi,we're wearing the same shirt :D

LM.

i truly miss the moment and the time we spent on LM

although people might think that we're a fool carrying heavy tables and chairs,and also arranging them properly.

but,we do really enjoy the moment spent in LM.

memories are forever kept in our heart.

happy 17th birthday ! wish u all the best in SPM :)

you're also a great friend of mine,really :')

at this moment,i can feel the STRESS is coming nearer to me

it's just the first week of school,and i already feel stress

how about the rest of the days?

and and,

i saw the news saying that 2011 may 21st will be dooms day?

if it's true,i've been studying for the past 13 years of knowledge just to wait for the dooms day to come?!

and at this moment,

i truly understand who's the one who really care me and who's not.

true friend doesn't exist,seriously.

am i alright?or i should say

i am

literally stress and confused.

signing off,

2010-12-31T23:14:00.000-08:00

went to the curve for countdown last night

i had fun with them alot :)

well,we bought present for yee aung and had lunch with all of them

after that we walked over to jaclyn's house

they were all playing snooker while i was playing xukie's itouch

and after that,we had perfomance LOL.

we sang 2 songs in front of the audience

but it's quite fun actually.

clock strikes 11.10pm,we walked over to curve

there were so many people @@

everyone of them are like holding a snow spray and aiming everyone.

and i hate that red shirt uncle ! kept on spraying me wth.i didn't even spray him

then we went forward and saw colby o'donis was perfoming there

then,kept spraying around none stop,until the clock strikes 12am.

fireworks then begin,i thought that everyone will stop spraying and enjoy watching fireworks

but then,they spray even more.=.=

saw some of my friends there.

few mins later,we walked back to jaclyn's house

and mom picked me up at 1.00am

what i wan't to say next is listed at the picture above

and omg,it's SPM year !

gonna really study hard this year.

no more playing around.

signing off,

2010-12-30T07:30:00.000-08:00

yee aung's advance birthday celebration

hang out with the form 3s

jaclyn's house party

countdown at the curve

tomorrow's going to be a good night

partyyyyy till 2011.

signing off,

2010-12-28T00:10:00.000-08:00

mom woke me up at 10.30 and i went to brush up myself

dropped brother at centrepoint

and off we go

my mom brought me to cambridge tuition centre

and before you can actually attend their tuition class,

you need to like,sit for an entrance exam.

i was like oh my god,i'm not even ready and they asked me to sit for the exam at the spot.

so i was like,okay.i'm ready for the test

and when i sit in,i thought they will like give me 40 questions to do

and it turned up,100 questions !

i was like omfg,so many questions how to finish in 45 minutes

and it's like,mostly subjectives.

only 10 objectives.

i was quite blur when i do the first question

they just gave a passage and asked you to fill in the blank

no answer to choose somemore

and well,i used more than an hour to finish it up

and it turned up 32/90 wtflol.

the examiner said that my vocab is weak,yes i admit.

she put me in level 2

and she said that i should be in level 3 which is mostly O level students should be in

luckily not level 1,if not i will be with the kids in kindergarten

luckily there's adults age 20++ in my class

if not i will be facing the kids under 15

but still,im fine with it,

as long as i can get well with them,it's alright.

hope that i will be happy with it when the real class starts

signing off,

2010-12-27T06:17:00.000-08:00

what i wan't to say is listed above

back to school in 7 more days

and 2011 will be here in 5 more days

and guess what?

it's my last year of high school and also my senior year

most probably humans are excited because there's prom night and stuff

but no,i'm not,i don't really have interest in prom

i just want't to leave high school.

as soon as possible.

SPM is swinging around my mind

telling me to study hard

for my future

study hard before everything is too late :)

2010-12-19T06:55:00.000-08:00

finally looked clearly on how people view me

it's easy.

just look into their eyes,

and by trying to read their mind

it proves it all.

i will use my pair of eyes,

to look at people carefully

not to be betray or use

will never easily believe in people.

even the close ones,

might just kill your heart in a second

without you realizing.

be smart,

before history happens

signing off,

2010-12-13T21:10:00.000-08:00

i have been doing nothing throughout this year-end school holidays

i should be studying hard for next year but my plan failed

have not been going out since no one ask me out :(

but still at least i went out twice with the both of them until almost midnight <3

it's been so long since we last hang out :)

hope that the c1 gathering will work out well

i've not seen them for so damn longggggggggggg.

it's time for reunion :)

can't wait to countdown for 2011.

a year,i have been suffering for a year

reason?

i don't know why :(

2010-12-07T18:45:00.000-08:00

yes,i am going there later.

together with celene yeap jin hui and tan toh siang.

stay tuned ;

signing off,

2010-11-25T22:47:00.000-08:00

Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia,SPM

i know i shouldn't be talking about this now because im not even sitting for it right now

but

it is in exactly a year time.

2011 is a dooms year

heard people saying that studying for SPM from now onwards

is too late ?

i already screwed up my PMR,

i don't want to continue screwing up my SPM

next year right after SPM trials,

i might be going for a vacation to USA before SPM starts?

life is awesome,ain't it?

having a vacation before SPM starts

im so going to screw up my SPM for sure

but at least,give me 2A's and 5 credits ?

i don't aim much like how the others do

just an average results that's it

but

can i ?

signing off,

2010-11-17T04:36:00.000-08:00

it has been a year

since i entered 4 bestari @ SMK Tropicana

there's ups and downs throughout 2010

but still

dear 4B students,

thanks for all the memories u guys had given to me

together we unite,

signing off,

2010-11-15T21:15:00.000-08:00

THE BEST DAMN GANG EVER . <3

the ex c1 gang :)

signing off,

2010-11-12T06:54:00.000-08:00

心淡了,

终于明白，

终于了解，

终于能够体会到

一段真正的友情

与

一段被出卖的友情

该如何分辨了

我累了,

真希望时间可以倒退

让我回到从前

但,

又有谁可以帮得了我 ?

2010-11-09T22:44:00.000-08:00

when time comes,you'll need to choose to leave

there's no way to an exit

until the day,the end of your life.

signing off,

2010-11-03T00:50:00.000-07:00

i screwed up my finals

and this is what i get :)

piece

shitty

results

yay im so happy !

signing off,

2010-10-29T00:31:00.000-07:00

I ♥ THEM .

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

WHEN IS OUR NEXT OUTING? :DDDDD

2010-10-22T00:59:00.000-07:00

life is like a light

once it is off

you're done.

signing off,

2010-10-03T05:27:00.000-07:00

day trip to form teacher's open house

but actually,it's more like celebrating her daughter 2nd birthday LOL.

so reached kj's lrt station's 7 eleven

met up with chooi ling,jia wen and kok siong

and they nvr tell me tht i should be waiting at the 7 eleven opposite the lrt station

i was like -_-

then went down to wait for bus

waited for janice for half an hour

then we ciao to pyramid

but janice end up go hang gai with her friend -_-

waited for teacher to pick us up to go to her house

went to her house,saw julian and say weng already there

then we sit down there eat and chat lo

then 3pm help teacher's daughter cut cake,like kid's party nia -_-

about 3.30pm then we ciao to pyramid

our teacher so smart,fetch us to her house by her car

and back to pyramid?we WALKED back -.-"

took us abt half an hour?

then went to mcd there eat ice cream,thanks jia wen for tht ice cream xD

then went arcade there see them play lo

play until 5++ then go buy present for teacher's daughter

bought a plush toy tht cost rm40 @@

then went to the bus stop there wait bus

OMG,THIS IS THE EPIC PART

we saw the bus is taking off soon

so we RAN LIKE AS IF IT'S THE END OF THE WORLD.

then when we reached there,walao,wrong bus -.-"

we were like wth -_-,running like a fool end up wrong bus

2 mins later,the real bus came lol

chit-chatted in the bus for abt 20 mins?

then waited for my mom to pick me up

end of my sunday. :)

signing off,

2010-10-02T04:21:00.000-07:00

goodbye teacher.

signing off,

2010-09-23T07:28:00.000-07:00

account folio

moral folio

lisan

sivik folio

add maths hw

stack of acc hws

life is so awesomezzzzzz

signing off,

2010-09-18T10:40:00.000-07:00

how was my holidays?

very good indeed

let me see what i did.

sat had 2 tuitions

sun at home do nothing

mon went shopping with mom and sis

tues went ee ching's hse do wrapping

wed went ee ching's hse do wrapping agn

thurs went out with jeen roe,wannie and chan yee

fri at home do acc hw

sat had tuition

sun at home do nth

mon went out with primary classmates

tues had tuition

wed had dinner with dad's korean friend

thurs had 2 tuitions

fri had tuition

sat had 2 tuitions

sun have not arrive yet but i bet it will be the same-nothing to do at home

isn't my holidays awesomeeee?

mostly tuitions wtf -.-

this is life.==

signing off,

2010-09-18T03:57:00.000-07:00

很想回到过去

把往事通通都忘掉

重新开始新生活

快快乐乐地活下去。

signing off,

2010-09-17T08:12:00.001-07:00

我，

不应该活在这世上

命中注定我不应该活在这.

i shouldn't be here

i shouldn't be borned.

2010-09-14T10:59:00.000-07:00

memories.

8 months

i left them for 8 months.

to a place,

with full of strangers

without knowing anyone from there.

i was with them everyday

until,

my first day of new life at a brand new place,

without knowing anyone.

i was silent for the whole day,

and afraid.

i don't know anyone,

don't know how will they treat me.

8 months later,

new friends

new environment

new place

new people

new school

still not very used to it

but still need to

the life there

is different

totally different.

thinking back of the memories i have with them

i feel so glad

and everything goes smooth everyday

finally

understand

why friends are important

without them

we won't be living a happy life like this

what should we do now

is to

continue our life

live life to the fullest

and everything will be

alright.

to them,

thanks for the memories.

signing off,

2010-09-05T19:53:00.000-07:00

PISSED

WITH

THE

ACCOUNTS

PROJECT

!@#$%^&*()

2010-09-02T05:51:00.001-07:00

back to life~

so yeah,today weiyee and jacy x go to school

i went alone

janice and ching go paint the wall

AND WHAT CAN I SAY THAT IS

i kena bully 99 wei -.-"

today is just an,unpeaceful day :(

2010-09-02T04:49:00.001-07:00

wa,this is just too much

2 weeks of holidays should let us take a rest

not giving us tons of homework to finish it !

moral project,accounts project,science hw,a.maths hw,tuitions

this is seriously killing !

signing off,

2010-08-29T22:27:00.000-07:00

朋友之间，一定会有误会和谎言，当然也少不了利用

damn you accounts project

after 3 and the half hours,still not imbang wtf -.-

u're seriously damn imba =.="

need to reprint the whole project again for the 4th time wth la.

when is this finishing?

it seriously annoys me like shit wei -.-

signing off,

2010-08-27T04:30:00.000-07:00

IMBANGAN DUGA AH !

PLEASE BE BALANCE,PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE !

IF U NOT BALANCE I NEED REDO U UNTIL U BALANCE AH !

WHY DO WE HAVE ACCOUNTS PROJECT?

SHIT WEI

1994 IS DAMN UNLUCKY

EVERYTIME OUR YEAR SURE GOT NEW SYSTEM OR NEW THING APPEAR WAN

WALAO ! SIBEH UNLUCKY..

yesterday had wall painting again,since exam's are over

but me,be guai lui yesterday :D

i attend almost every period expect english :D

i also had fun with the gang in science lab,long time never have this kind of happy feeling :')

you guys rocked my day :):)

got back almost most of the results,and i have shittty resultss.

so far,add maths(again) is the only subject i fail -.-

others were okayyy,i guess?

and today i skipped bm tuition :D

two times in a row this 2 weeks :D

i skipped tuition last fri,cause of accs project

and no body inform me tht tuition postponed to 10am in the morning today

i was sleeeeeeeeeeeeping until cy called me up at 9.45am saying tht tuition is at 10am

and,i replied:"do you think i can still rush to tuition at this time?"

end of call xD

back to sweet dreams after that.

life is miserable,and also gay sometimes

accept the fact :)

signing off,

2010-08-22T04:51:00.000-07:00

just came back from 1u with wei yee and jacy

after reaching there,walked into 1u

while walking,saw lots of lee hom's fans waiting for him

tht time was only 10.30am @@

insane fella -_-

then went to find siew mei,later find wei yee

then we got hang ard and bought movie tickets

guess what show we watched?

descent 2.

just so you know,it's a 18 and above movie

so it's scarrryyyyy

lol,it's not tht scary.

it's like suddenly the screen appear the monster out and scream

but it was quite an interesting movie though

go watch :)

then we hang ard at ou

went down to see lee hom

but apparently,he hasn't reach yet

and there's so many heads there O.O

we weren't allow to go into the entrance there unless we bought his album and stuff

so we went up,and see them from upstairs

and the stupid guards shoo-ed us down

so we walked down by stairs and continue waiting

then after we opened the door after walking down the stairs,

WE'RE INSIDE THE ENTANCE LOL.

lol,so good.new way to get into concerts without any ticket and etc lol

after a while,went back to old wing to wait for my mom

mom came to pick me up at 6.30pm

and guess what?i still didn't get to see lee hom

nvm,not a fan of him also LOL.

results will reveal soon,hope i will pass every subject =/

signing off,

2010-08-20T06:04:00.000-07:00

在我最后一次闭上眼睛之前

我想对你说我爱你

在你怀里舍不得放弃

心里有千万语还没说给你听

我使劲全力不想闭上眼睛

这次告别就不能再相遇不能再陪你

但不要忘记

你曾经答应我你会好好活下去

先走了去了好远的地方

不能再陪你看日出

等不到天亮

所有回忆没去却并不容易

生死由天决定不要太伤心

在我最后一次闭上眼睛之前

我想对你说我爱你

在你怀里舍不得放弃

心里有千万语还没说给你听

我使劲全力不想闭上眼睛

这次告别就不能再相遇不能再陪你

但不要忘记

你曾经答应我你会好好活下去

我永远爱你

exam's are finally over ! :D

so far,the harder paper were bm,add maths(as usual),moral and also sejarah(as usual too)

partayyy tonight yooo

but there's still accounts project lining up on my schedule list -_-"

2 weeeeeeeeeks of holidays coming in a week time

gonna rockkkkkkkkkk during the holidays

寂寞，

可以形容我现在的心情。

signing off,

2010-08-12T03:08:00.000-07:00

我是一个没有用的人，

短一句话，废才。

或许，我不应该踏入这一个地步，

后悔了，真的后悔了。

但，一切都太迟了。

signing off,

2010-08-06T21:19:00.000-07:00

today im gonna post abt LM AGM.

congratz to the new 15 of them

although i dont really know them

but still,i know chen yi among all of them

congratz for getting a post as a penolong ketua av.

oh and also sook min for penolong ketua wakil kelas 1.

AGM,seriously will just make everyone feel dissapointed

that's the reason why everyone left,after AGM

im sure alot of ppl will disagree on some of them

but this is the fact,none can change it

everything is over

just let it be,

LM is a society that let us help the school for upcoming events and also gain friendship

not to get post and proud of it.

i hope the 15 of them wont be like that,

to the 15 of them,i have nothing to comment

and i also can't comment about them

nvm,as long as friendship still remains,

nothing will seperate u guys

once a LM,forever a LM

GOOD LUCK !

signing off,

2010-08-04T01:33:00.000-07:00

feel so languid this few days

i even skip school today ! HAHA

exam's in 123456789101112

oh shitzz,12 more days

i don't feel like studying D:

signing off,

2010-08-02T00:51:00.000-07:00

这个世界上

是多么的现实与残酷

我只知道

这个世界上

朋友

是不存在的

朋友

就只是两个字

说什么好朋友，真心朋友，知心友，普通朋友,

统统都是假的

认识越久

不代表越好

没有人晓得下一秒会发生什么事

我只知道

这一秒

要做好自己

前一秒

做不好

这一秒再加油

下一秒

看结果

saw this in jeen roe's blog

omg,so true man !

signing off,

2010-08-01T04:00:00.000-07:00

nowadays don't know what happened to me

a little matter can made me pissed off like hell

so if i did scolded you guys,i would like to apologize here

很想离开这个伤心地，

但是，我并无法离开。

一切都由命中注定，

难道连一次机会都不给我吗？

signing off,

2010-07-29T02:31:00.000-07:00

is very lost right now

am having a very very very complicated life

i am like a toy to them,

whenever they need me,i'll be there

whenever they don't need me,they just throw me away

what can i do ?

tolerate?

or continue my life without them ?

who can help me ? =/

signing off,

2010-07-28T00:02:00.000-07:00

thinking back of the time we've been through everything

this is called memories

time can't rewind,

but memories can be cherish.

thanks for everything,bestfriend.

signing off,

2010-07-27T07:36:00.000-07:00

today is officially the day i left chs for half a year

and entered this new school for half a year

thinking back of the memories i had with them

my tears rolled down quietly

i miss them,i really do :'(

signing off,

2010-07-26T00:39:00.000-07:00

family potrait :)

全部世界我也可以放弃至少还有你值得我去珍惜而你在这里就是生命的奇迹

feel that this lyrics is quite meaningful

and also a nice song :)

nothing much to say~

sat went to janice's bday

not bad lah,not that bored

at least there's still jokes ard

just wanna wish janice~

happy advance birthday

enjoy ur sweeeeeeet 16th :)

end of post.

signing off,

2010-07-23T00:22:00.000-07:00

4 more days later

will be my 6 months since entering smk tropicana

time passed quite fast

can time stop ?

and happy birthday teresa ! :)

tmr going janice's bday party

was wondering whether what will it be tmr

will i be left out ?

or not ?

89 more days~~

end of post.

signing off,

2010-07-17T02:36:00.000-07:00

when happy moments end,

sad moments will appear,silently.

signing off,

2010-07-09T09:25:00.000-07:00

我已经用尽我所有的力量去和他们和好，

但是，我，却失败了。

可能是，命中注定，我一辈子都需要自己一个人孤独地活下去。

我心里所想和我所说的一切都不一样，

不要看到我那么的坚强，其实，我心里，是很脆弱的。

没人能了解我的心情

我的命，真苦呀！

2010-07-02T07:36:00.000-07:00

just came back from bm tuition

and guess what happened

someone didnt zip his pants !

haha,whole class LOL-ed while he asked us what happened

sometimes i think that my bm tuition is even nicer than being in school

cause,there's always jokes and laughness

i like this life,but sadly,i can't have it.

最近，觉得很自卑。

不知道为什么

是不是因为拥有了新的生活？

我们之间的距离越来越远了，

我恐怕，我们会连朋友都不如。

2010-06-23T23:39:00.000-07:00

science lab. :)

outing with them.:)

moral project. :)

will update soon :)

2010-06-14T09:57:00.000-07:00

wannietoopingsim :)

had an outing with wannie,chan yee,his bro,2 of his cousin bro and his cousin sister

LOL,looks more like his cousins outing

actually me and wannie go mix them jek xD

got sunway lagoon 30% discount wo,of course go sampat a while lo xD

but at last,no discount pun..-_-

wad can i said tht,they're very timid

dont dare play those rides,somemore forced me to sit alone during those rides :(

went to swim as well

it's quite fun though

went to popular,for fun

separated with chan yee them

they went back home while we're still at sunway pyramid wtf -.-

then we sat shuttle bus to wannie's father's shop

waited for her dad for 1234567890 mins

then her dad went to pizza hut to pack for their dinner

waited for 1234567890 hours

then her dad dropped me to chan yee's house

waited for my mom to pick me up

went home at 9

end of the day

kthxbai.

2010-06-14T09:43:00.001-07:00

說了再見

天涼了　雨下了　你走了

清楚了　我愛的　遺失了

落葉飄在湖面上睡著了

想要放　放不掉　淚在飄

你看看　你看看不到

我假裝過去不重要　卻發現自己辦不到

說了再見　才發現再也見不到

我不能就這樣失去你的微笑

口紅待在桌腳　而你我找不到

若角色對調你說好不好

說了再見　才發現再也見不到

能不能就這樣忍著痛淚不掉

說好陪我到老　永恒往哪裡找

再次擁抱一分一秒都好

你的笑　你的好

腦海裡　一直在繞

我的手　忘不了　你手的溫度

心碎了一地　撿不回

從前的心跳　身陷過去我無力逃跑

說再見　才發現再也見不到

能不能就這樣忍著痛淚不掉

說好陪我到老　永恒往哪裡找

再次擁抱一分一秒都好

2010-06-06T23:26:00.000-07:00

today i would like to blog about

CATHOLIC HIGH SCHOOL !

chs is an awesome school.

i've met alot of friends there.

they're all friendly,and helpful.

although i've been forced to get out of this school,

for some reason.

but,i've never regret entering this school

this school made me know alot of things

and gain experience

was once a chs-ian

and forever remains as a chs-ian

never regret on what we's done,

b'cause one day,u might be the one.

signing off,

2010-06-05T05:18:00.000-07:00

事情搞得越来越复杂，

友情到底去了哪里？！

以前的我们，日子过得都开开心心的

但是现在，一切都改变了。

现在的我们，不会像以前那样

到底是什么非要我们分离？

到底是为了什么，你们要这样对她？

我们不是一向来开开心心的过日子吗？

为什么现在好像敌人都不如

现在的我们，可以变回以前那样吗？

我好怀念过去，我们的回忆

但现在，我看我们只能把它当成记忆，

或者，彻底地忘了过去的回忆

;

We can have a lot of friends,a few good friends,but only one best friend. <3

signing off,

2010-06-03T22:04:00.000-07:00

EXAM

OVER.

HELLO HOLIDAYS ! :)

signing off,

2010-05-26T00:01:00.000-07:00

自从我离开后，

一切都已改变了。

事实已摆在眼前，

要逃也逃不了。

到底发生了什么事请？

谁可以回答我？

yooo , im backk !

exammmmmmms !

made me :(

2 weeks of exams gone

3 more subjects left then here comes holidays ! :)

nowadays exam,we have lots of time to study

but end up chatting wan =.=

then end up,we chat throughout the time before exams =.=

and when comes to exam,gg.com -.-""

i dont have paper tmr until monday

so i have 5 days of holidays :D:D:D

and my laptop,walao.tht stupid man said spoiled agn,and ask my mom to buy another one

somemore he doesnt wanna give back my laptop

eat ppl's laptop one -.-"

what should i say?

oh,to chs-ians,good luck in ur exams yoo !

i know Nabi Muhammad S.A.W killed you guys

but still,haha.good luck in the other subjects :)

and addmaths made me burst -__-" ,am so gonna fail,AGAIN =.=

should catch up with some movies,ciao.

signing off,

2010-05-22T07:58:00.000-07:00

totally stressed up.

why is everyone's exam starting next week while my school's exam started this week?

damn unfair !

my life now is just study study and study

my stupid laptop spoiled a week ago -_-

am using my sis's computer to update this dead blog

well,mid term is going to kill me @@

the results,i have no eyes to see it -.-

sejarah,totally killed me =.="

why am i still lavishing time here?

i should be studying =|

dear add maths,please stuff urself into my brain

i dont wanna do you which kills my brain cell

and i also screwed up my english test on that day

actually i screwed up every paper la

2 weeks of holidays coming up,surely gonna hang out and rest more

I NEVER USE THE COMPUTER FOR A WEEK !

FIRST TIME IN HISTORY LOL

and my accounts tuition,haiz

sitting alone at a corner =/

may is such an unlucky month :(

signing off,

2010-05-12T08:14:00.000-07:00

undescribable feeling ;

signing off,

2010-05-09T10:15:00.000-07:00

;

9 more days

;
8 more days

D:

signing off,

2010-05-05T06:00:00.001-07:00

i know the word "friends forever" won't exist
b'cause friends can only last for a moment,not forever
although u're my best friend,but i know
it won't last long,not to say i don't treat u as my best friend
it's because of different school,having a different life
but i'll always treasure u as my friend . ♥
thanks for always being there for me.

14 more days ; sweeeeeet 16th.

signing off,

2010-04-27T05:31:00.000-07:00

FIRST TIME IN HISTORY !

MY

BIRTHDAY

FALLS

ON

AN

EXAM

DAY

!

D:

signing off,

2010-04-15T10:02:00.000-07:00

life is not that easy as u thought,

sometimes u may face challenges

whether is good or bad,

u won't know.

signing off,

My Bittersweet World (:

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

全部世界我也可以放弃 至少还有你 值得我去珍惜 而你在这里 就是生命的奇迹

feel that this lyrics is quite meaningful

全部世界我也可以放弃至少还有你值得我去珍惜而你在这里就是生命的奇迹